On many days Loa says she is not doing well, meaning she is not practicing enough. Many things go against her wish to practice rather than help it. Watching her like that breaks my heart. Practice never came naturally to her. It always needed tremendous efforts. Yet she doesn’t want to quit cello because she is scared of not being able to find anything she can do better than cello. She always dreamt to become something else than cellist – kpop idol, dancer, painter, gymnast, figure skater,… and she still loves watching anime, manga, and web-toons, cosplay, collecting anime character figurines, and mini handbags. I am not sure if cello is not her thing or training is simply too tough. I am not sure how to help her live a happy life. If all cellos in the world disappear, will she be happy? Will I be able to show her hope in training to become a performer?